Silence

Just as the words were at the corner of my mouth, at the tips of my fingers...
i have not the courage to spill them out as i suddenly remember how things are different now...
how confusing... haha..

will always be hoping for the best for u... =)

Back~

Just got back from HK~~
lotsa things to do... unpack, wash clothes, put up the christmas tree...
but first things first...

Dear Roomate, HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!
May God smile upon u always~~
*hugs and kisses* u know i love u~^^

Dear Xin Rou, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!
May have a wonderful blessed birthday~ =)
Really miss u lots!! haha.. looking forward to see u next year~^^

last but not least,
Happy Birthday Teddy~~ =)

Holiday~~~^^

I'm going to Hong Kong tomorrow!!!^^

Wee~~~

Can't wait!! Will be boarding the plane for the 1st time~~ =3 i've never boarded one before.. 'san ba' right? i'm the only one in my family who's never boarded a plane to somewhere.. hehe.. so this time the window seat's MINE! Muahahaha... =P Just hope i dont get plane-sick..XD and of course no final destination what not too..XP

Will be back on the 22nd, so.. goodbye for now people~ =)

The End. Another Beginning

If life was to be divided into chapters, Form Six definately deserves one.. =) yet sadly or gladly, it has finally come to an end...

Can't really believe it's finally all over~~ hahaha... the studies, the camaraderie, the uniform.. haha.. I'm officially graduating from High School!! ^^ the past year and a half has really been... difficult.. XD haha.. It has really been an eye opener as F6 brought out the best and the worst of me..XD at least now i know i'm seriously not a natural at maths... lolz. The struggle and tears that i went through for the past year and a half has definately made me more mature..XD agree? haha..
Despite the hardships, there were really many sweet moments too~^^ the outings, classroom madness, and friendships~ *smilez* These bittersweet memories will always be etched in my heart~ =)

Wish i can add more to this post, however, words seem to fail me on this occasion.. =)

By the way, a big big THANK YOU i bid to all that have helped and been with me all this while~ u know who u are ;) Thanks for all your moral support and words of encouragement~ couldn't have done it without them, love yall lots~ =)
Thanks to everyone and everything that have made my f6 life a colourful one.. no matter yellow, red, purple, green, blue, grey or black.. Thank Q~ *bow*

~ The End~

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus
I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you...

I Saw A Vampire This Morning

Woke up to recall that i had no memory of going to bed.. i fell asleep while revising literature...

Woke up and realised i slept on my glasses... cracked one of the lens..XD

Woke up and was greeted by my week-old sore throat... *muted groan*

Woke up to see a tussle-haired pale figure looking at me with its bloodshot eyes...

oh wait, that's just my reflection...

Exams are soooo fun...

2 to go...

Sick...=/

was down with sore throat, flu and fever yesterday...
lofted around the house with a mask on...
didnt study at all...=/

anyways, still feeling quite okay now..XD hope it lasts..
Chemistry, here i come~~

*mum and siss are going to watch 'a christmas carol' today.. i cant go..=(

Mathematics

It's finally over...

my long battle with the M subject..

haha.. nice to know that i've done what i can for it, even though i could have been more careful, done more practice, etc... but i have always been.. not very good with figures.. XD haha.. looking back at my mountain of maths notes and exercises, really feel a lil prideful for completing them..XD

Even though i'm still terribly bad at figures (may just scrap a pass for it in stpm XD), through the years and tears, thank you for being a worthy opponent..^^

Nothing is impossible
Always believe in miracles
(^______^)V

Thank you Jesus for being my companion through the thick and thin all these years too.. haha.. you alone know how i feel and what i've been through.. =)

5:5

上半场已打完了。。。

必须好好用功，补偿上半场的不足。。。

5 down 5 to go~

★★★★★

First paper...

right now...

i feel like a total failure...

who can (or want to) convince me otherwise?

T^T

Grace

Today...

i got my first pair of Levi's jeans!!!^^

Happy happy~~ =)

Thanks mum & Thank the Lord! ^^

at times, i always receive something surprising that i feel i don't deserve...
just like Jesus's love... out of love, men was forgiven...
God always amazes me with his generosity and kindness... =)
Am greatly thankful!^^
Rejoyce~ Rejoyce~ and again i say Rejoyce!

All i hope for...

3 As & 2 Bs

fat hope?

May Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven..

To Love is to be Vulnerable

Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.
To love is to be vulnerable.

C.S Lewis, The Four Loves


5

Daylight Robbery

6th November 2009 Friday 1645+

i was home alone.. studying in my room.. then i heard a woman screaming.. peeked out of my window... OMG!!! *scream* i saw a man chasing my mum with a knife! then my mum fell and he was over her! i immediately dashed down to unlock the door, my heart beating eractically, praying that she's not hurt... as soon as i got out, the man had already fled the scene on his motorbike... mum was standing, supporting her right wrist with her left hand, dripping blood in front of our house, staining her white blouse.. was so dazed at the sight that i could hardly speak.. neighbours who heard my mother's cry were gathering.. after leaving me some hurried instructions, mum was driven to the nearest clinic by our next door malay neighbour.. i drove our car into the porch, closed the gates, attended to the neighbours and then locked myself at home... was so anxious and worried bout mum's condition.. yet i couldnt reach her cuz her handbag along with everything in it was robbed... torturing... mum called back 15 minutes later from the clinic saying she was still okay and asked me to cancel her credit cards and etc...

She was back later in the evening... apparently she came down of the car to open the gate then this guy stopped beside the car and grabbed her handbag... as he was climbing back on his bike, my mum snatched her handbag back from the bike's basket and quickly ran towards the guard house at the end of the road while the robber gave chase.. mum outruned the robber.. however the robber turned back and headed towards the car.. worried that the robber would steal the car, (the engine was still running) she TURNED BACK.. =.= this time the robber sucessfully chased and snatched her handbag when she fell... slashing her hand.. *shudder* according to our neighbour, she saw that man loitering around this morning... just as he was leaving, my mum drove passed him.. mum said she saw him pass in the opposite direction.. guess he must have u turned.. grr.. how 'fortunate' of him...

anyways, THANK GOD mum's cut is not that bad... depends on how u see it.. she got 9 stiches however she was considered lucky as her artery and nerves were not damaged..
Conclusion: be really careful!!! GIVE your belongings to the robber! it's better than ending up hurt! take care orh... these are dark dark days...

why should i care that you dont really care? sigh..

Graduation Day =)

4th November 2009

IT'S GRADUATION DAY!!!
again...XD

well, at least i'm FINALLY graduating from high school.. XD haha.. graduating frm CHS for the second time seems a lil weird.. same ceremony, same hall... however different classmates, different view... this year i got to perform with me fellow F6s~~^^ which i didnt in f5.. Wonderful experience!

Our first song was '知足' by 五月天 and the second was '五十三颗苹果' composed by chian ping! (a fellow f6 student) despite some previous misunderstanding and bad jokes bout the apple song, it still turned out great! =) Thank God! Even before we started singing, the audience was already chanting '苹果!苹果!苹果!' (cuz they've heard it before during the rehersals) Really felt like a concert!XD all of us even brought apples up stage and took a bite before the end of the song~^^ sorry i dont have the video!! but here are the links! ^^
MUST WATCH AH!!!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=313988275596&ref=mf
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1089612412&ref=mf#/video/video.php?v=316316760596&ref=mf

stand by...^^

with apples~~^^

Wait. That's not all! ^^ hehe.. after the grad ceremony almost the whole class stayed back for lunch at Amcorp's Kenny Rogers~~^^ Had a long long table and a whale of a time! =)

tok panjang U6B style!^^

teresa, sue ping, mei qi, ting king n me^^

reflection~ (mel and i)

bon apetit!^^

and... miscellanous photos~


i love pooh!^^
funny expression with mouth full.. XD

zhi pai skill~


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though it was a happy day, something made me feel really bad...=/
we were crossing the roads on the way to amcorp and petite mel whom wasnt really street smart held my hand, relying on me to take her safely across... crossed the first, reached the divider and... dashed across the second after a glimpse of the traffic and after someone shouted 过! it was the longest crossing ever... as if time slowed downed and so did our steps.. was a lil numb with fear while i felt mel's hand tightened against mine.. i feared that we wouldnt make it if we turned back... feared we were not fast enough... therefore we dashed across... hoping we could make it in time...
apparently, it was a really risky and dangerous move... 4 of us made it to the opposite whilethe others remained at the divider... mel was shocked to tears once we reached the other side.. i felt so bad... i should have been wiser.. especially with mel with me. Based on the condition of the traffic i would have made it across ok... however my judgement was meant for myself alone.. i should have been more careful with mel by my side... stupid me.. so sorry mel..='/ shouldnt have risked your life as well...
felt terribly guilty... as mel was as wise as a chicken when crossing the road, i was responsible for our impulsive act. apparently i was a chicken too.. i admit. totally my fault. im sorry. im sorry. IM SORRY...
was already very very guilty... though guess i didnt show much of it as i wanted to comfort mel... however upon sensing my friend's anger upon my irrational act, i cried too...='/ though i know he was angry because he cared... however... i guess my own guilt +other ppl's anger and disappointment doesnt really mix well... so so so sad... i knew i was responsible and im sorry.. even if i dont show any signs or tears doesnt mean im not shakened by the incident too u know... *sobs*
basically this is not the first time my guilt and other ppl's anger resulted in myself tearing... guess i dont tend to show much of my guilt.. but i really do feel very guilty and sad... sad cuz i did something wrong... i always try my best not to do something wrong.. even for small things... however sometimes it happens.. it makes me worse if ppl close to me are angry.. guess im too sensitive to other ppl's emotion toward myself... sorry.. though i cant understand why ppl get angry at the mistakes committed by the person they care for.. dont they know how terrible they feel? dont they know they are really sorry and they just might need some comfort too? or is it just me who conceals negative emotions, undetected by others and thus makes them angry? puzzled....

Gambate!!!

To all beloved examination-sitters...XD
(F6, A-lvls, etc)

ALL THE BEST IN YOUR EXAMS!! =)

MAY GOD SMILE UPON US ALL~^^

Exactly 30 days from now, i'll be sitting for my first stpm paper at this very hour...XD how time flies... one more month!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! I failed my maths and chem during trials...*sobs* maths was... kinda expected... haihz, have simply NO IDEA why i cant do maths.. i spend the most time on freaking maths questions too..='/ maybe i should accept the fact that maths and i were not meant to be...XD still, wont give up la..(though i feel like it...) at least get a pass for maths during stpm ba! ^^ and chem... OH CHEM... why did i fail..T.T work harder!!! GGRRR....

My Predictions XD

BIO - B+
CHEM - B
MATHS - C
PA - A
ENG LIT - A

Will be quite satisfied with the results above dy.. hopefully.. can do better than this ba... but pls not worse..XD

Lastly, i dedicate this song to all the followers of my blog, thanks for caring^^ (u care bout me right?XD) Haha.. May all of us find our hero and the strength to carry on~

HERO - Mariah Carey

There's a hero,
If you look inside your heart,
You don't have to be afraid of what you are,
There's an answer,
If you reach into your soul,
And the sorrow that you know will melt away.

[chorus]
And then a hero comes along,
With the strenght to carry on,
And you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive,
So when you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And then you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you.

It's a long road,
When you face the world alone,
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold,
You can find love,
If you search within yourself,
And the emptiness you felt will disappear.

[chorus]

Lord knows,
Dreams are hard to follow,
But don't let anyone tear them away,
Just hold on,
There will be tomorrow,
In time you'll find the way.

[chorus]

That a hero lies in.....you
Ooohh that a hero lies in.....you

JESUS is my hero! =)
Who's yours?

梦寐的幸福 - an email^^

两种老公 两种人生‏

A:她：“老公。帮我接杯水呗。”
他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。”
她：“算了。我自己去吧。”

B:他们坐在一起看韩剧。她起身。他问“干吗去？”
她：“去接杯水。”
他：“你坐这看吧。我去给你接。”

女人多可怜。她对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有，只要你疼她，她就有足够的勇气把自己的下半辈子交给你。
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A:他晚上下班。给她打电话“宝贝儿。我晚上和朋友出去吃饭。”
她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？”
他：“改天吧！”
她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？

B:他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的。别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去

看球了啊。”
她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。”
他：“怎么不高兴了？”
她：“你忘了。上周说好今天我朋友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。”
他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。”
她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或者你先去看。我们等你。”
他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的。你肯定不舒服啊”
她：“没事……”

没等她说完。他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一下。我一会儿去接你。”
其实女人不是不懂事。只是，她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实。情侣之间，是可以互相的。

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A:他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。”
她：“几点回家？”
他：“九点之前肯定回家。”
九点半，她：“你怎么还不回来啊？”
他：“十点。肯定回家。”
十一点。十二点。一点。两点……
后来。她不再打电话催他。因为她知道。对于不守承诺的男人。一切“肯定”都是“未必”。

B:他：“我晚上出去吃饭。九点之前肯定结束。然后我俩去看电影。”
她：“你能那么快就结束吗？”
他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定能！”
快到九点的时候。他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你家了”

信任。是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。
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A:她生理期。身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服。收拾屋子。
他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。
她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。
他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿。辛苦了！”然后转过头。继续玩他的游戏。

B:她生理期。很难受。起身准备洗衣服。
他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！”
她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过衣服吗？”
他：“不会做可以学着做啊。以后你身体不舒服的时候。我当然得独挡一面！”

女人需要的不只是甜言蜜语。哄她几句，她也许会给你一个微笑。但是实实在在的呵护，她会对你一辈子的感恩。并且会回报给你一个温暖的家。
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A:她给他拿了一包榛子。然后她去洗衣服。
回来的时候。榛子已经被他吃得所剩无几。

B:她拿给他一包榛子。然后自己去收拾屋子。
回来的时候。她看见电脑前面放了一堆剥好的榛子仁。

女人很感性。她炫耀你对她的体贴，就好像炫耀克拉钻一样。这么廉价的买卖，用一点心思就能收获无比的财富。
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A:他说：“你是最好的。”
她问：“我哪好？”
他：“学历高。能力强。长得漂亮。对我又这么好。”
她笑了。

B:他：“你是我所遇到最好的女孩儿。”
她：“我哪好？”
他：“你对身边的每个人都很友善。很无私。对人对生活总是很感恩。一个人有一颗善良的心。会让周围的人感觉到温暖。你是我见过最善良的女孩儿。伤害你的人都应该下地 狱！”
她哭了。

一个人。是因为你对他好，所以觉得你好。
一个人。是因为懂得你的好，所以想要对你好。
幸福的恋人，首先应该是一对彼此欣赏的知己。

Sushi Bonanza

RM 2 per plate of sushi at Sushi King~~
XD
Think i have eaten enough sushi to last me a year...


***

燕姿姐是其中一位拥有独特风格的实力派歌手。。。

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
(谁记得 )谁忘了

我怀念的无言感动
我怀念的绝对挚热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅
我记得你在背后
我记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱的太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

我觉得自己好傻哦。。。
开心地傻。。。
伤心地傻。。。

Hanging in there...

terrible day...
woke up at 1 am+ and vomited whatever i ate during the Full Moon dinner i attended yesterday.. drank a lil water and went back to sleep...
woke up at 3am+ again to throw up the water i drank.. went back and tried to sleep...
woke up at 4am+ and spewed unknown yellowish liquid (bile? gastric juice?)... lay on bed till 5am...
had milo and oats for breakfast which i could only take sip by sip..
sent mum to school for one-day-trip to melaka, sent michelle to friend's house to car pool to school, sent myself to ktm for tuition in KL...
threw up my breakfast after unboarding the ktm...
tuition...
then, had 1/4 to 1/3 of a subway sandwich for lunch at KLCC with TK.. (too bad i couldn't finishT.T)
stopped at mid valley to change Ringgits to Yen for Amy (she's leaving for KLIA tmr and leaving for Japan on Tuesday morn.. all paid for homestay programme in Japan.. how nice^^)
got back around 3pm.. (thank God i didnt have to take the bus and walk back..=)
Sleep~~~

have been feeling giddy and oxygen deprived the whole day...
hopefully i can digest my dinner tonight..=)

btw,
Special thanks to TK~ =) for your patience for sick me and for being by bodyguard/calculator..=P haha.. belanja u watch movie after stpm k? ^^

btw,
SORRY KAK!!!
ffk u..='/ have been looking forward to spending some time with u tonight..

4...
i wonder do u still remember?
guessing tat u've forgotten...
maybe i should too...

2nd Wed DInner: KL special

Cousin bro held a second wed dinner at putrajaya for KL friends.^^
Nice atmosphere, cool live band, great food!=P
However, i found out that dinners like this costs a BOMB!
Terrible...XD It's enough to go for 3 honeymoons leh..XD
anyways, i'll just let the pictures do the rest of the talking..^^

Venue: Mariot Hotel, Putrajaya
Date: 26th Sept 2009


fake wed cake XD

ice sculpture^^

cute ballon wedding dolls^^

yummy prawns^^


sea cucumber and fish maw

jun xian, amy, zhi ying, me =)

Cheers~^^

Ayer Tawar Special

wee~~ back frm hometown!!^^ missed me?XD haha..

there's really no place like home.. haha.. miss my bed!!XD body aching all over due to the foreign beds i've slept in for the past few days..=P Gained alot of weight these few days too..T.T too many yummy food..=P getting waist-less..XD haha.. anyways, travel log as follows~~^^

SAT
Woke up at 5am. Left house at 6am and met up with church member. balik kampung together!^^ reached Bidor around 9pm for breakfast. Stopped at Setiawan for "gong piang" and cendol an hour later~~^^ hehe.. now i know where to get my favorite "gong piang" ( fu chow biscuit with onion filling^^) and the best cendol ever~~ reached Ayer Tawar just before 12pm.. they did some renovations to the house.. new tiles, paint.. it looks much neater^^ esp the bathroom..XD idled time away.. aunts were busy preparing for the bachelor party that night.. cooking and cleaning.. helped out a bit.. however after buffet dinner i escaped to my aunt's motel room to "study" XD

SUN
Wedding day!! ^^
however there wasnt much bustle when i woke up though..=.= haha.. went to the little noodle stall behind the house for breakfast~~ had "Kampuang" and "Lu Mian"^^ tasty fu chow noodles where u can get no where else!! RM 2.00 for one big bowl!!! (easily worth 5 or 6 in KL) Yummy~^^
Then, went back and got ready.. the groom(my cousine) fetched the bride back around 11am.. beautiful bride~~^^ they've been together for like... 15 years? haha.. since secondary school leh~ FINALLY getting married! XD groom and bride in western clothes but chinese traditional wedding.. funny..=P alot of rules to follow leh.. there's this modern "dai kam jie" telling us what should be done and etc.. od course there's the "tea ceremony" and boy-jumping-on-the-bed tradition and really lots more.. haha.. after seeing their wedding, i think i definitely want a christian church wedding~^^ haha.. it just feel.. better that way..=P

Dinner was supposed to start at 6.30pm. Started at 7pm. Rather small restaurant.. with smaller tables and plastic chairs..XD but nice food all the same~^^ ended at 9pm!!! Earliest wedding dinner ever..XD haha.. went home and camwhored a bit..=P


girls~~^^

Groom and Bride and cousines and niece+nephew^^

MON
Went back to the noodle stall for breakfast again~~ love "lu mian"^^ had "long yan" oso.. hehe.. went out with mum's friend later on.. went shopping.. bought some local products eg. kampung koh chilli sauce, mee shua..... went for cendol again~ wee~^^ then went for lunch!!^^ we had... 2kg of mouth watering crab for lunch!!!!!! love crab~^^ stopped by the roadside and bought some "gong piang" again..XD then went back, packed and left for Kampung Jering (village nearby)~ attended a church funtion that night.. went out yumcha with a few local isaiah students^^ and slept over at mum's friend's place..^^

TUE
Went back to the noodle stall for breakfast AGAIN!!! XD muahahaha... cant have enough of it~~ jin hor liek~~(nice to eat)^^ then dili-delied for awhile before leaving for home after lunch.. went over to Sg. Buloh to visit friends... then... HOME!!!^^

Have been playing and eating and sleeping for half of my holidays dy..
BUCK UP Xian~~ study!!=P

Day Out

Sooo glad today's a holiday~~=)
at least it bought me time to revise for my bio paper which i should sit for today XD haha..

Anyways, went to mv with TK today.
Watched Final Destination in 3D!!!!!!!
sugoi neh~~^^
imagine gruesome scences in front of u in 3D!!
lots of things are hurled at u... screw driver, tyres, nails, snake...XD
I fell for them and jerked almost everytime!! =P scary yet fun.. haha..

Lunch was Great~~ =)
had italian food for the first time~ but its still western food to me anyways.. cant differentiate..XD haha.. the bill... *ahem* forget bout it ba~ haha..

It started raining only after i got home... =) ♥ rain...

Going back to Setiawan, perak for my cousin's wedding tomorrow...
will only be back by.. wed? sigh.. have to study there... lets just say there's not much fun there.. neither is it conducive for studying... hope i can study.. bio, english lit and maths2.. XD Have to continue to study after today's break.. GO DENISE~~~ XD haha.. k lah.. need to pack dy.. nitez guys...=)

btw,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!! ^^

STPM Trials

Pray for me pls...

speechless..

Just pray for me ya..

Thanks...=]

3+

Hungry...

...for attention and affection...

hugs anyone?

sigh...

Hometown tour

Went back to Sepang for the weekend~~ ^^

FRI
I drove back to sepang around 6pm..XD haha.. its just an hour's drive la.. plus most of the journey was spent on the highway.. so no big..=P Ate pan mee for dinner. Then, went to visit Grand-uncle and Aunt Grace~~ (though mum only has one brother, but my mother's mum has 7 brothers!!! *faint* So, my mum has many many cousins, thus i have many many distant cousins~~ =P So, basically during CNY, if i see someone old and mum greets as uncle/aunty, i'll just call "Granduncle/Grandaunty!" tested fool-proof XD) Anyways, we are particularly close to this granduncle and aunt grace(his daughter). Aunt Grace, a pastor in Singapore, visits her father often during the weekends as granduncle lives alone in SP...
Slept early.^^

SAT
Woke up to yummy breakfast~~ (we stayed in mum's best friend's place and she is a super duper exellent cook!!^^) Had Korean Rice Cake and Japanese La Mian and Miso soup~~
Had lunch out though. Char Kuew Tiao and fav Amokana drink!!
Main Point of this trip : Dinner!!!

Sepang Chinese Methodist Church 100th Anniversary Celebration~~
Attended service at 4pm. P&W, Choir, Sermon, history slide show... The highlight was the choir~~ Amazing how much they've grown under YU lao shi's guidance.=) Bravo!
Dinner was supposed to be at 6.30pm... AS usual, we started an hour plus later..=P
a 9 course dinner + speeches + dances + choir + play = 4 hours
Highlight: the play!!
Wonderful play bout how the church came about etc.. The most amazing part was that they built an EXACT minature building of our church out of styrafoam!!! YENG!! The play was produced by zhu wen!! *gasp* no wonder so good la~~^^ He is the Indonesian-Chinese professional play producer & Theology student from STM.=) He taught us (isaiah students) how to act before and he still remembers me~^^
no pics though, =/ sayang...
Reached home around 11pm, slept at 12...

SUN
Attended sunday service at 11am. Met the other theology student, Zhun Chun (from China) briefly. He brought his wife and 0ne year old daughter from China!!! Finally, they are reunited. Very touching~~ =')
Had lunch at AH LEK'S. Granduncle's fav coffee shop. Went over to granduncle's at 4-5pm again. Saw mum climbing granuncle's mango tree!!! lolz. she wouldnt let me climb though, scared i'll fall wor...=.= haha.. harvested quite a basket of mangoes~~
Headed to Sepang Gold Coast at Bagan Lalang beach...
Again, i havent receive the photos..=/ so grabbed some from the net..=P

It really looks exactly like this~~^^we arrived just in time to see the sunset...

this is the plan for the chalets and its almost completed~
of course it was 'inspired' by the palm beach in dubai... =P

Anyway, went to Tanjung Sepat for dinner..=)
Hung around Lover's Bridge before dinner... it was already dark though.. but the sea breeze was very cooling and the sky was full of cotton-candy clouds and tiny twinkle stars... Through the simplicity of the old plank bridge while the fisher-boats tied to it creaked when hit by the waves, it truly reminds you how beautiful Malaysia truly is.. The Malaysian way.=)

Happy 52nd Birthday Malaysia! =)

Isaiah N time gathering~

Outing with isaiah students at 1U~ =) Got together, hung around, had dinner at pizza hut~ cheapest meal ever! paid only RM3!!! haha.. cuz we got cash vouchers..XD Thank Q hui shan!!^^

darling huis shan~^^

Actually this get together was to meet up with hui shan.. she just completed medic frist year in Russia and will be going back to Russia soon~ Long long time no see le.. will miss smart and quiet hui shan again..=/ Wish her all the best!! May God be with her always~~^^Besides that, got to meet everyone again!=) though many more could not make it..

38 isaiah =P how come got 24 and 7 oso de...?XD

Cheers~ =)

New

New blog skin!!^^

Have spent quite some time editing it.. =P

Like it?

I love it!=)

Any suggestions for further improvements are welcomed!^^
leave your opinionn at my cbox!=)

*link u guys later k? need to go now..XD

Sorry boy..='/

I ran over my cat - Boyboy last thursday night...
he was rushed to the vet's around 10pm..
Bone fracture of the left hind leg..
Was operated on on friday, inserted iron rods to hind leg to ensure the bones aligns and heals..
today...
Boyboy left...

turns out boyboy's bladder was also damaged... urine leaked into the system and poisoned the blood..

I feel like a murderer...

I'm really sorry...T.T

Dates

Have been quite taken by counting the days on my calender lately..=)

6
days till A-Day-Out with girls^^

13
days till Isaiah gathering^^

35
days till trials..>.<

100
days till STPM!!!
p(@.@)q

2 months since...

Old Folks Home : Revisit

Didnt go for tuition today.. went to "De Sheng Zi Jia - Lao Ren Yuan" instead.. =)

How fast time passes, the last time i first visited that same old folks home was just one and a half years ago... Singing the same songs...(though i was not leading them this time..=P) Seeing the same house... Some familiar faces... Basically the place didnt change much.. the same brother - Tuck is still running the house... the rooms.. kitchen..

However, this time i came with the CHS girl guides instead of the group of Isaiah students...

Thne again, today wasnt that bad..=) the old folks particularly liked the chinese oriental music performance. The 2 'er hu's and the 'pi pa' really did woo them which made it easier for us to connect with them later on. One of the old folks even sang an opera song for us! ^__^ Haha.. There was also the egg tarts and 'lao po' biscuit.. don't think they get to eat much of them as i observed them munch on the biscuits with much satisfaction... though i was worried if any of them was a diabetic..XD we arrived around 2pm and left at 4pm.. btw, i just remebered, we forgot to help sweep the floor of the crumbs!! and we promised Tuck!

Hm.. Not to say that today's trip wasn't enjoyable... however today... i felt like it was all about us and not so much about them.. we laughed, we sang, we clapped, we chat.. but did we bring true joy to these old folks? or did we visit them just to have an activity as such completed? Sometimes i cant help feeling that trips like that are a lil hypocritical.. if you know what i mean... we visit old folks, we feel happy with ourselves, yet are the old folks happier? or did we create more trouble for them and their caretakers? (guess Bro En De really did teach me a lasting lesson..=P)

I hope the next time i participate in charitable events, i'd like to really touch the souls of the people i helped instead of just "touch and go"... =)

P.s. tomorrow maths intensive starting.. guess i'll move my tuition time from friday to saturday tomorrow onwards..=)

Take good care of yourself okay? =)

Rainy day 1

It really rained!!

Nice weather...=)

Feel like standing in the rain..^___^

Waiting for My Rainbow

Starting from tommorow, my STPM trials exam will be just 40 days away...

40 is a rather significant number in the bible. For example:

God made it rain for 40 days and 40 nights. Then Noah waited another 40 days for the waters to subside before opening the window of his ark and letting a dove out.

The Israelites wandered for 40 years before arriving at the promised land.

Moses spent 40 days on the Mount Sinai with God.

Jesus fasted for 40 days in the wilderness.

Jesus was seen again 40 days after His crucifixion.

i tried to start revising and studying 10 days ago... but to no avail..=P i keep ending up snoozing on my bed by 9-10pm and waking up at 4am. Terrible.XD i need stronger will power!!! which i often lack...=P This seems to be one of the reasons i dont fancy jogging.. cuz i cant see the end!!! at least when you're playing some other sport or game, like soccer you get to count the goals and you know how much time is left...

On the other hand, maybe i dont even feel like studying and sleep offers a sweet escape from the tiring reality, into glorious dreams that are far more heart warming than the emptiness that floods me during the night... however i do know that this is only a temporary solution.. and if i dont face reality soon it will pile up and worsen... sign...

On the bright side, thankfully, i have God that will always be by my side to renew my strength and to love me. =) i also have my family and friends to support me. What more could i ask for? I should be contented with what i have and count my blessings! yet why do i mope and laze? often letting my mind wander to where it does not belong... I should not hope for something i dont have and treasure what i do have! Only a fool would do otherwise...

I know i can do better if i put my heart to my studies.. its time i do so... and stop making a fool of myself.

After the 40 days and 40 nights of rain, God put a rainbow in the sky as a covenant promise that He would not destroy the Earth by a flood again.

After my 40 days and nights of storm, rain and dampness, i hope to see my rainbow too. =)

Everything is going to okay. =) Have faith!

*keep me in your prayers k? =) i'll always keep u in mine!

Bright Star

Bright Star
John Keats

Bright star! would I were stedfast as thou art--
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature's patient, sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors--
No--yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
Pillow'd upon my fair love's ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever--or else swoon to death...

Muet

BAND 5

=)

i know i screwed my writing paper.. still thank God it's not a 4..
as always..
i could have done better...

Give Thanks! ^__^

Neutral Tones

Neutral Tones
by Thomas Hardy

We stood by a pond that winter day,
And the sun was white, as though chidden of God,
And a few leaves lay on the starving sod,
--They had fallen from an ash, and were gray.

Your eyes on me were as eyes that rove
Over tedious riddles solved years ago;
And some words played between us to and fro--
On which lost the more by our love.

The smile on your mouth was the deadest thing
Alive enough to have strength to die;
And a grin of bitterness swept thereby
Like an ominous bird a-wing....

Since then, keen lessons that love deceives,
And wrings with wrong, have shaped to me
Your face, and the God-curst sun, and a tree,
And a pond edged with grayish leaves.

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this is a poem that i'm studying lately for english literature... go on and interpret it..=] will post the meaning of the poem later... however, i think this is rather easy.. so may not post the meaning unless requested..XD haha.. feel free to leave comments in my cbox! ^^ interested in what others might think of it.

***
Went to Nilai INTI last saturday for a Molecular biology workshop...

girls =)

our DNA electrophrosis


posers^^

group photo with lecturer, Dr.Geetha

Have you ever felt torn between 2 worlds?
science or arts?
i like them both.
However, am not really outstanding at both?
how do i decide?

...

I believed it was forever...

Lost Generation

Watch the video!!
very yeng!!! haha..=)

Lost Genaration

Summary

Fuh... it has been a long long time since i last blogged...
many things have come and passed..

I finished my exam!!^^
haha... 1st term only... dont think i did well though...=/ need to put in more time and effort... well, i still have MUET speaking test tomorrow... no idea when is the listening test...

Form six inter school games was held yesterday...
a hectic and tiring day...haha... it was supposed to go on for two days (sat and sun), but due to some complaints from other school administries... everything was pushed to saturday! most of us registered for multiple games... so we had to rush from one competition to another... i had siu jeen substitute me for captain ball cuz i couldn't make it...=/ but anyways i still managed to play netball!^^ basically there were only 3 teams... taman sea, abdul samad and chs... taman sea team really kicked ass our asses! XD they had 4 mssd players plus the other 3 were not bad either... we lost 4:12.. at least better than AS (0:15) =P the match with AS was much more enjoyable... cuz we won.XD haha... no lah... it was more relaxing^^. but we still won anyway! =P first time for me to play Centre!!!^^ and maybe the last time too...=/ haha... but i think i was not bad... ^^ proud of me-self!

then after that, hurried to MegaCMC for a talk bout youth relationship and sex education... started at 3pm and ended at 10pm... the pastor's wife was the speaker.. learnt a lot bout handling relationships... however the thing that really struck me was the video that we watched... an abortion surgery... how the tiny 3 month old feotus was removed.. part by part from the vagina... the hands... legs... head... *shiver* there was lots of blood too... almost puked at the beginnning.. XD then they assembled the parts togther again... forming a foetus... and compared it to a dime... so tiny... really makes you feel like a murderer... and to think twice and thrice bout premarital sex...

Made a few decisions yesterday... right or wrong, good or bad... i dont know... the only thing i can hold on to now is that God will lead my way...=] though it does seem rather fuzzy right now... haihz.... dont feel well...

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