at times, i always receive something surprising that i feel i don't deserve... just like Jesus's love... out of love, men was forgiven... God always amazes me with his generosity and kindness... =) Am greatly thankful!^^ Rejoyce~ Rejoyce~ and again i say Rejoyce!
Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.
i was home alone.. studying in my room.. then i heard a woman screaming.. peeked out of my window... OMG!!! *scream* i saw a man chasing my mum with a knife! then my mum fell and he was over her! i immediately dashed down to unlock the door, my heart beating eractically, praying that she's not hurt... as soon as i got out, the man had already fled the scene on his motorbike... mum was standing, supporting her right wrist with her left hand, dripping blood in front of our house, staining her white blouse.. was so dazed at the sight that i could hardly speak.. neighbours who heard my mother's cry were gathering.. after leaving me some hurried instructions, mum was driven to the nearest clinic by our next door malay neighbour.. i drove our car into the porch, closed the gates, attended to the neighbours and then locked myself at home... was so anxious and worried bout mum's condition.. yet i couldnt reach her cuz her handbag along with everything in it was robbed... torturing... mum called back 15 minutes later from the clinic saying she was still okay and asked me to cancel her credit cards and etc...
She was back later in the evening... apparently she came down of the car to open the gate then this guy stopped beside the car and grabbed her handbag... as he was climbing back on his bike, my mum snatched her handbag back from the bike's basket and quickly ran towards the guard house at the end of the road while the robber gave chase.. mum outruned the robber.. however the robber turned back and headed towards the car.. worried that the robber would steal the car, (the engine was still running) sheTURNED BACK.. =.= this time the robber sucessfully chased and snatched her handbag when she fell... slashing her hand.. *shudder* according to our neighbour, she saw that man loitering around this morning... just as he was leaving, my mum drove passed him.. mum said she saw him pass in the opposite direction.. guess he must have u turned.. grr.. how 'fortunate' of him...
anyways, THANK GOD mum's cut is not that bad... depends on how u see it.. she got 9 stiches however she was considered lucky as her artery and nerves were not damaged.. Conclusion: be really careful!!! GIVE your belongings to the robber! it's better than ending up hurt! take care orh... these are dark dark days...
why should i care that you dont really care? sigh..
well, at least i'm FINALLY graduating from high school.. XD haha.. graduating frm CHS for the second time seems a lil weird.. same ceremony, same hall... however different classmates, different view... this year i got to perform with me fellow F6s~~^^ which i didnt in f5.. Wonderful experience!
Our first song was '知足' by 五月天 and the second was '五十三颗苹果' composed by chian ping! (a fellow f6 student) despite some previous misunderstanding and bad jokes bout the apple song, it still turned out great! =) Thank God! Even before we started singing, the audience was already chanting '苹果!苹果!苹果!' (cuz they've heard it before during the rehersals) Really felt like a concert!XD all of us even brought apples up stage and took a bite before the end of the song~^^ sorry i dont have the video!! but here are the links! ^^ MUST WATCH AH!!!
Wait. That's not all! ^^ hehe.. after the grad ceremony almost the whole class stayed back for lunch at Amcorp's Kenny Rogers~~^^ Had a long long table and a whale of a time! =)
tok panjang U6B style!^^
teresa, sue ping, mei qi, ting king n me^^
reflection~ (mel and i)
bon apetit!^^
and... miscellanous photos~
i love pooh!^^ funny expression with mouth full.. XD zhi pai skill~ ***********
though it was a happy day, something made me feel really bad...=/ we were crossing the roads on the way to amcorp and petite mel whom wasnt really street smart held my hand, relying on me to take her safely across... crossed the first, reached the divider and... dashed across the second after a glimpse of the traffic and after someone shouted 过! it was the longest crossing ever... as if time slowed downed and so did our steps.. was a lil numb with fear while i felt mel's hand tightened against mine.. i feared that we wouldnt make it if we turned back... feared we were not fast enough... therefore we dashed across... hoping we could make it in time... apparently, it was a really risky and dangerous move... 4 of us made it to the opposite whilethe others remained at the divider... mel was shocked to tears once we reached the other side.. i felt so bad... i should have been wiser.. especially with mel with me. Based on the condition of the traffic i would have made it across ok... however my judgement was meant for myself alone.. i should have been more careful with mel by my side... stupid me.. so sorry mel..='/ shouldnt have risked your life as well... felt terribly guilty... as mel was as wise as a chicken when crossing the road, i was responsible for our impulsive act. apparently i was a chicken too.. i admit. totally my fault. im sorry. im sorry. IM SORRY... was already very very guilty... though guess i didnt show much of it as i wanted to comfort mel... however upon sensing my friend's anger upon my irrational act, i cried too...='/ though i know he was angry because he cared... however... i guess my own guilt +other ppl's anger and disappointment doesnt really mix well... so so so sad... i knew i was responsible and im sorry.. even if i dont show any signs or tears doesnt mean im not shakened by the incident too u know... *sobs* basically this is not the first time my guilt and other ppl's anger resulted in myself tearing... guess i dont tend to show much of my guilt.. but i really do feel very guilty and sad... sad cuz i did something wrong... i always try my best not to do something wrong.. even for small things... however sometimes it happens.. it makes me worse if ppl close to me are angry.. guess im too sensitive to other ppl's emotion toward myself... sorry.. though i cant understand why ppl get angry at the mistakes committed by the person they care for.. dont they know how terrible they feel? dont they know they are really sorry and they just might need some comfort too? or is it just me who conceals negative emotions, undetected by others and thus makes them angry? puzzled....
To all beloved examination-sitters...XD (F6, A-lvls, etc)
ALL THE BEST IN YOUR EXAMS!! =)
MAY GOD SMILE UPON US ALL~^^
Exactly 30 days from now, i'll be sitting for my first stpm paper at this very hour...XD how time flies... one more month!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! I failed my maths and chem during trials...*sobs* maths was... kinda expected... haihz, have simply NO IDEA why i cant do maths.. i spend the most time on freaking maths questions too..='/ maybe i should accept the fact that maths and i were not meant to be...XD still, wont give up la..(though i feel like it...) at least get a pass for maths during stpm ba! ^^ and chem... OH CHEM... why did i fail..T.T work harder!!! GGRRR....
My Predictions XD
BIO - B+ CHEM - B MATHS - C PA - A ENG LIT - A
Will be quite satisfied with the results above dy.. hopefully.. can do better than this ba... but pls not worse..XD
Lastly, i dedicate this song to all the followers of my blog, thanks for caring^^ (u care bout me right?XD) Haha.. May all of us find our hero and the strength to carry on~
HERO - Mariah Carey
There's a hero, If you look inside your heart, You don't have to be afraid of what you are, There's an answer, If you reach into your soul, And the sorrow that you know will melt away.
[chorus] And then a hero comes along, With the strenght to carry on, And you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive, So when you feel like hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong, And then you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you.
It's a long road, When you face the world alone, No one reaches out a hand for you to hold, You can find love, If you search within yourself, And the emptiness you felt will disappear.
[chorus]
Lord knows, Dreams are hard to follow, But don't let anyone tear them away, Just hold on, There will be tomorrow, In time you'll find the way.
[chorus]
That a hero lies in.....you Ooohh that a hero lies in.....you
terrible day... woke up at 1 am+ and vomited whatever i ate during the Full Moon dinner i attended yesterday.. drank a lil water and went back to sleep... woke up at 3am+ again to throw up the water i drank.. went back and tried to sleep... woke up at 4am+ and spewed unknown yellowish liquid (bile? gastric juice?)... lay on bed till 5am... had milo and oats for breakfast which i could only take sip by sip.. sent mum to school for one-day-trip to melaka, sent michelle to friend's house to car pool to school, sent myself to ktm for tuition in KL... threw up my breakfast after unboarding the ktm... tuition... then, had 1/4 to 1/3 of a subway sandwich for lunch at KLCC with TK.. (too bad i couldn't finishT.T) stopped at mid valley to change Ringgits to Yen for Amy (she's leaving for KLIA tmr and leaving for Japan on Tuesday morn.. all paid for homestay programme in Japan.. how nice^^) got back around 3pm.. (thank God i didnt have to take the bus and walk back..=) Sleep~~~
have been feeling giddy and oxygen deprived the whole day... hopefully i can digest my dinner tonight..=)
btw, Special thanks to TK~ =) for your patience for sick me and for being by bodyguard/calculator..=P haha.. belanja u watch movie after stpm k? ^^
btw, SORRY KAK!!! ffk u..='/ have been looking forward to spending some time with u tonight..
4... i wonder do u still remember? guessing tat u've forgotten... maybe i should too...
Cousin bro held a second wed dinner at putrajaya for KL friends.^^ Nice atmosphere, cool live band, great food!=P However, i found out that dinners like this costs a BOMB! Terrible...XD It's enough to go for 3 honeymoons leh..XD anyways, i'll just let the pictures do the rest of the talking..^^
